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Carolyn
Quit 4,840 days ago

I am addiction

January 6, 2019
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I have another post in Quit net that was really long - if you are interested it is called For those who feel there is no hope of being quit, or discouraged.

This is an excellent repost. I have to run and get some cleaning happening. KTQ Cara D4680

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I AM ADDICTION (repost, good one) From pegrob on 6/6/2007 5:23:48 PM

jcarven posted this in 2001 on the quitnet forum..

~I am addiction~

I Hate meetings...I Hate higher powers...I Hate anyone who has a program. To all who come in contact with me, I wish you death and I wish you suffering. Allow me to introduce myself, I am the disease of addiction. I Am cunning, baffling, and powerful. That's Me. I have killed millions and I am pleased. I love to catch you with the element of surprise. I love pretending I am your friend and lover. I have given you comfort, haven't I? Wasn't I there when you were lonely? When you wanted to die, didn't you call on me?I was there, I love to make you hurt. I love to make you cry. Better yet, I Love to make you so numb you can neither hurt nor cry. When you can't feel anything at all. This is true gratification. And all that I ask from you is long term suffering. I've been there for you always. When things were going right in your life, you invited me. You said you didn't deserve these good things, and i was the only one who would agree with you. Together we were able to destroy all the good things in your life. People dont take me seriously. They take strokes seriously, heart attacks, even diabetes, they take seriously. Fools. Without my help these things would not be possible. I am such a hated disease, and yet I do not come uninvited. You choose to have me. So many have chosen me over reality and peace. More than you hate me, I hate all of you who have a 12 step program. Your program, Your meeting, Your higher power. All of these things weaken me, and I can't function in the manner I am accustomed to. Now I must lie here quietly. You don't see me but I am growing bigger than ever. When you only exist, I may live. When you live I may only exist. But I am here... And until we meet again, If we meet again, I wish you death and suffering.


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    m.m.
    Quit 1,749 days ago
    5 months ago #

    It is progressive. My honey is paying for the sins of the past big time. Lifestyle. He quit drinking years ago but being healthy takes more then just stopping one thing. You can not un-ring a bell. I have nothing to brag about I wanted to quit smoking for years and it was not until my heart started to pump uncontrollably. That got my attention. I took it personally. Sad it took so long for me to do it.

    • tman55
      Quit 1,879 days ago
      5 months ago #

      No regrets!! We did wait too long but we overcame nonetheless. Proud!

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    Monnie626
    Quit 152 days ago
    5 months ago #

    I'm super weak. I need help. I hate smoking.. But it is my addiction of choice. I feel desperate. Since I quit I feel weepy. Is this normal. Super crabby

  • tman55
    Quit 1,879 days ago
    5 months ago #

    Yes Minnie, totally normal. It’s your addiction wondering wtf u are doing! Lol. It gets better. Everyone of us here will tell u this. Life without cigs is the only way too roll. Stay strong.

  • BobbieB
    Quit 481 days ago
    5 months ago #

    Yup Monnie! Totally normal. It balances out so long as you dont smoke. Think if it as recovery! Your body is litterally returning to a state it should be at without the drug of nicotine!

  • eupnea
    Quit 100 days ago
    5 months ago #

    All of what is happening to you is normal. What isn't normal is the presence of 7000 substances in your body that it now believes it must have. You are stronger than you think you are, you are stronger than the addiction. Keep remembering your reason you're quitting, do what you need to do to and know it will truly pass. Freedom awaits!

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