It is a long way to go from "I gotta quit" to celebrating our freedom. My honey said those words the other day and I found myself getting excited but I did not want to scare him away. I think every smoker has that thought. Usually right after we butted that last cigarette. He is under so much stress and pain right now that I think that going through withdrawal couldn't make it any worse. He has cut back and spends about a hundred bucks a month now on pouch tobacco. Still I hear the phlegm in his lungs and the horrible coughing fits. ( I do not have that any more). It is hard when a person faces other challenges. I want to reach out my hand to MammaD because job hunting is very challenging. The belief that the smoke did something for us particularly when we are struggling is challenging. My sister went up to two packs a day after her husband left. That truly did not make things better. But what we were fooled by was the relief that was felt when we took that first puff particularly if our nicotine levels were low had a mood altering affect. Short lived and then further action was always taken to manage our reality. So skip the smoke and get on with the actions that will help. Healthier and wealthier helps the journey.