I grew up around smokers. Started smoking when I was 15 .. around the year my aunty died of cancer from smoking. I could smoke on school grounds. I could buy smokes easily. I could smoke anywhere.
I am 32.5 now and smoke about a pack a day. I used to jog and play soccer .. I don't anymore. I have a family. I work a lot. I am around smokers and smoke all day.... I need this part of my life to be done. it scares me and it depresses me.

I just concluded (with a good outcome) a long summer (only 2 weeks left) ... stress has me down a lot. My next full weekend off I have to attempt this.
That is all.
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