6 years ago my older sister got breast cancer. I watched in horror all that she went thru including her having one breast removed, all the chemo etc etc etc and I was horrified needless to say. I'm next in order of siblings so this definitely started my thinking about the whole cigarette thing. Every person in my family smokes including me some 40 years now. I'm happy to say that my sister is now cancer free and doing well but watching her go thru this nightmare was definitely a wake up call for all of us!!! Then more recently maybe 5 years ago I started on a quest to improve my health with or without cigarettes. That wasn't on my mind at that time. But over time as I was doing all these things to become healthier, swimming, aquasizing, eating better etc etc etc I just came to a place in my thinking that doing all these things seemed so pointless because once I walked out of whichever place I was swimming at I lit up a smoke. I just kept thinking "how stupid is this, work my butt off to get healthier then walk out and light a smoke." Over more time I was able to kick the habit. Five times no less. I got really good at quitting. Lol. I'm now on my 6th stab at giving it up for good (cysts showed up on my last mammogram, scary scary). My thoughts went back to my sister and all the hell she went thru at this point and I put those miserable things down for the last time I have decided. I now recognize my triggers and I now know how to cope with them. I have sadly lost a few friends along the way but that's ok, my health is more important. My point - never give up - it may take you a few tries but you can do it!!!! Thanks for listening.